Color Me Butterfly

I pray to God every morning that i wake up wheather its a good or bad day to see my daughters beautiful little face. My life is so confusing, i don't know what to do but try and try again. Sometimes my plan may never work out. My life feels so overwhelming. i so need everything to be alright but for it to go so wrong. Days ahead seem courtless, yesterday seem forever, maybe next year will be a little bit better. i fear in my dreams, i dream of fear. What if i die because of my fear. So many what ifs, what if this, what if that, Stop and think for just one minute, what if it don't work out, then what. I just don't know, my life is so hard. i was raped when i was just so young, when i strated having relationship i was either physiclly or mentionally abuse, sometime both. I got pregnant when I was only 16, I had my daughter at 17, I am now 18 and my life has been a struggle and it has to get better. I live in DV shelter far away from home all because I got mixed up with the wrong people. I was afraid for my life and my daughters too.Sometimes I need the courage to get up out of bed to face a new day.Ithink to myself "Whats going to happen to me today". my Life feel empty, i live because of my daughter. Mo man should ever put their hands on me or you no matter what, Love is not getting hit or hurt not even talk down to, we are equal. Love is someone being there for you and not wanting anything in return. I stand today and i am telling you right here,right now that I love you no matter how big you are or how you look, I love you, You make me strong. i live because of you.
To" Kayonna Nichole Bartlett

Nikki, this is great awww i'm so glad you did this

Im so proud of you that you had the courage to share your thoughts with the world. But more importantly with people or woman who may need a bit of comforting or maybe a couple kind words maybe a little pick me up. You have no idea how many people don't realize that there are others out there going thru the same things and just don't know how to deal with it. So keep on writing and sharing your thoughts and experiences with others.