Color Me Butterfly

i was in a abusive relationship for 13 yrs. i realize the abuse when i became pregnant with our son.i've never felt so alone and suicidal in my life. i left many of times and he found me. he always told me if i leave, he will kill me. so i stayed. i've being beaten with close fist, guns,furniture and anything he could pick up. i lost my government job,family,friends and my self-esteem.i left my abuser on 6/3/05 on my oldest daughters birthday without my kids. two days later he called me and put his kids on the lawn with their belongings. i picked them up and we entered a safe haven house. at that time i was pregnant with a third child on the way. he saw me one day and beat me like a man pregnant and all. i didn't want the baby until i found the Lord and her name is Justice. i had so much hate and anger from this man, that i had to forgive him for it was blocking my blessings. after being in hiding for 2 yrs. and worshipping the Lord, i can say "FREE AT LAST".