Color Me Butterfly

Speaking from a personal stand point the laws for domestic abuse against women are not stiff enough. Men feel the laws don't apply to them because they didn't kill the woman so whats the problem. Control, low self-esteem, jealousy, drinking and drugs are a good indication of bad things to come. Not wanting you to have friends or family because he is all you need is not love. He was alienating me from everyone so that he can could control me. Get Out! He wanted me to be his everything. Happiness starts with self. He was never happy with who he was so how could he be happy with me. My mother saw him for who he really was early in our relationship. I couldn't see it because i was in love. Restraining orders are simply not enough. My Ex threatened my life on several occasions but when i reported it to the police they told me i had to have more to prove this. I was almost choked to death in November 2005 it was by the grace of God i was able to get away from him. He got probation and a 500 fine. Is this enough to stop an abuser. I don't think so. Many women continue to live in this type of situation out of FEAR! I stayed 2 years out of fear and it is not worth it. He told my mother she would see me in a coffin before he would let me go. So i stayed. I got pregnant for him and miscarried in my 7 month due to stress from the relationship. After losing my baby enough was enough! I felt i had lost everything and decided to fight back! He never saw this side of me and it scared him and he left town. I threatened to take his life in return for taking my baby's life. After thinking about it he was not worth it and never will be. When they show you the first sign of abuse get out. It will only get worse. Silence can be deadly! If i would have just told one person maybe i could have avoided so much pain and heartache. Love doesn't hurt!